hello mum i find it hard to take in that it's been a year nearly, so much has happened, which you would of hated, i've tried to sort it, but i can't, so don't be upset, although it's upset me so much and i don't think ive cried so much over something before as i have this, i know you know what i'm talking about, so mum.....this year has been the hardest ever, it can only get better, i just need to tell you that i love you very much and i know you'd have the answere for my questions, oh i don't know what to do anymore, so help me out!!!!! the girls miss you, ellie quite often talks about you, i think of you every day, i love you mum, so much xxxxx xxxxx